For a moment, my mind refused to process what my eyes were seeing.<\/p>\n
My hands began to shake so badly I had to sit on the edge of the bed.<\/p>\n
The envelopes were yellowed with age, the corners softened by time, but the handwriting on the front was unmistakable.<\/p>\n
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My name.<\/strong><\/p>\n Written again and again, in the careful, slightly slanted script I had once known better than my own heartbeat.<\/p>\n My son\u2019s handwriting.<\/p>\n My chest tightened as if an invisible hand had wrapped around my lungs.<\/p>\n My son\u2014my<\/em>\u00a0child\u2014who had been born fragile, bright-eyed, and painfully sensitive.<\/p>\n My son who, at ten years old, had begun to sink into a sadness so deep no light seemed able to reach him.<\/p>\n My son who had passed away before his eleventh birthday, leaving me drowning in guilt and unanswered questions.<\/p>\n For years, I had believed he left nothing behind.<\/p>\n No letters. No diary.<\/p>\n No goodbye. Just silence.<\/p>\n And now\u2026 here they were.<\/p>\n All of them.<\/p>\n Hidden under my stepson\u2019s bed.<\/p>\n A sound escaped my throat\u2014half sob, half gasp.<\/p>\n I picked up the bundle with trembling fingers, as if they might dissolve if I touched them too roughly.<\/p>\n There were dozens of letters. Maybe more.<\/p>\n Some envelopes were sealed. Others had been opened and re-sealed with tape.<\/p>\n A few were wrinkled, as though someone had read them over and over again.<\/p>\n I opened the first one.<\/p>\n Mom,<\/em> I know you\u2019re tired all the time.<\/em><\/p>\n \u00a0I know you try to smile for me. I\u2019m sorry that I make you worry.<\/em><\/p>\n My vision blurred instantly.<\/p>\n I remembered that night.<\/p>\n He had been sitting at the kitchen table, homework spread out, staring at the same math problem for an hour.<\/p>\n I had brushed his hair back and told him it was okay, that he could rest.<\/p>\n I hadn\u2019t known he was already apologizing for existing.<\/p>\n I read the next letter.<\/p>\n And the next.<\/p>\n Each one felt like a knife and a balm at the same time.<\/p>\n He wrote about school.<\/p>\n About the way other kids laughed when he cried too easily.<\/p>\n About the teacher who told him to \u201cbe a man\u201d when he asked to go to the nurse because his chest hurt.<\/p>\n About the dreams he had where he was flying, and the ones where he was sinking into dark water and couldn\u2019t scream.<\/p>\n I don\u2019t want to disappear, Mom,<\/em>\u00a0one letter said. My tears fell onto the paper, blurring the ink. 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I\u2019m writing this because it\u2019s easier than talking.<\/em><\/p>\n![\"\"](\"https:\/\/cdn.treeiq.biz\/site_114\/2026\/04\/myth-0c109254-db78-4754-951e-b03301c49226.jpg\")
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But sometimes it feels like the world wants me to.<\/em><\/p>\n
I tried to tell you, but you were always busy. When you yell, it makes the dark thoughts louder.<\/em><\/p>\n